I kinda wondered when was the last time i wrote a slightly happier entry.. i had so much free time last 2 days i re-read all my entries at Open Diary.. and all the entries i had on multiply and bravejournal. somethings just werent the same again.

im getting pretty worried for mum.. and due to various family problems.. its been putting certain amt of weight on me and im getting kinda hyped up.. *shrugs* as i move on.. i realised and understood more as an adult.. the world isnt wat i portrayed it to be.. i dunno as much as i tot i knew..

grandpa got discharged from the hospital a few days back.. apparently, grandma went to thailand with my small uncle.. dun ask me y.. coz i dunno why at a time like this she chose to go thailand and leave my grandpa alone. my mum went over 2 days back.. bought food for him.. onli to realise the house sunk in stench. grandpa had diarrhoea.. couldnt ctrl.. and yes.. u guess it.. it was all over the house..

dad was an hygiene freak.. and he couldnt take the smell.. he went back down into the car.. whilst leaving mum to clean it. being a sick person herself.. she had to clean up the whole house.. i shall leave u all w/o the full details.. coz it got pretty gory towards the end... and i fear u are reading this during lunch time..

after all the cleaning up.. mum accompanied dad to have his lunch.. and dad.. again.. dun ask me y.. knowing his own condition.. chose to eat curry rice.. (full of chrolestorol).. mum tried to stop him.. but couldnt and she was afraid he will get agitated.. then his chest pain will come again.

so.. wat now.. ive got a sick mum who is taking care of a sick dad and a sick grandpa.. with a also sick grandma who cant care less.

*sigh*

im tired.. i realli am..

baked cookies for my boi yesterday.. but mum gave me a container tt wasnt air tight! in the end.. when alwin ate the cookies.. they were already soft.. .. it took me 4 hours to do the cookies.. sigh.. i had made the cookies for him.. to tell him how sorry i am for making him so upset with me last week..

had wanted the eeyore from shell station so much.. yest went there.. no more stock liow.. *big sigh* it was such a freaking low morale day.. din slp well the previous day.. woke up and bake cookies.. cookies turned soft.. and no eeyore..

guess the only happy thing was tt bixia won the sch belle and beau thingy.. happy for her..

admist all these.. while i was abt to sleep yesterday.. my boi hugged me and said.. " its realli nice to have u around.." *melts* sometimes it onli takes someone u love just to say a sentence like this to make u forget all ur worries.. of coz.. onli temporary la.. =)

in sch now... terribly tired.. got AF lecture later.. damn sian..

to all my friends who are reading this and to those who msged me bout my well-being: thks a million.. im doing well.. im doin fine... wat doesnt kill me makes me stronger.. im okie.. no worries..

to phil: if u r reading this.. i hope all is fine for u.. and things are getting better k.. *hugs*

till then..



d3niz

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