Tuesday, June 14, 2005
okie. suppose to slp.. but i cant fall into snooze. so im back to write bout my startling thoughts i had and was suppose to write bout it in the previous entry but didnt-for some reasons.
yesterday marked our 1 year 9 months together. never been this far and never had it so sure. there were the other guys in my life that used to make me feel like i was the happiest person alive, but out of them, there was only one that made me feel like i could live with him for the rest of my life. had an interesting talk with mum bout the gals tt used to hover ard dad last time, based on the fact tt well, dad was good looking and charismatic. alwin has a fair share of them too.. the gals. visualising on a fishmonger's tray, you'll have a fair share of irritating fishes, dark skin fishes, germaine-ic fishes, and all the rest of them hovering ard just to get a bite of MY BREAD. i close 1 eye sometimes, in fact 2 most of the time.. but i know i have to protect whats mine. according to mum's analogy, there were gals(at tt time) who even told my mum tt.. "so wat? ure the gf onli.. clear fight.." and then mum asked if i was willing to live with this for the rest of my life.
honestly, i pondered. living with it for almost 2 years was enuf to suffocate me and it made me irritable. was i really able to live with it for the next 60 years? i allowed my thoughts to freely roam and these days, i caught myself totally so deep into thoughts that when alwin suddenly taps me on the shoulder, i get lost in the surroundings of where the car was. today, i went to the kwan yin temple and got a good lot after asking abt the above mentioned problem.
"A fledgeling soon grows to be a mighty bird. it then flies to heights, other birds could not attain. one is lucky to get this prediction. every good thing comes naturally"
when i read this lot, i was elated. wow, it even mentioned accordingly to what i asked. it said other birds could not attain. then when i was home.. i suddenly thought.. was this lot toking bout me.. or toking bout him.. -stunned-
im not saying i live my life with all these lots. somehow, temple lots give you just greater certainty and prolly an ease of mind should u know things are going to b fine.
tt aside, coming thru almost 2 years of r/ship, those who have been thru it would know it takes a tremendous amt of maintenance. finding time to care and love each other, loving him still despite all the things he forgot to do, just being together without taking each other for granted, a whole lot of assurance. its as easy as typing it out but really its all hard work.
he irritates me with the most unbelievable habits but at the end of the day, you know u've accepted it when you know u'll lived with it. and everytime something bad or something sour happens, i constantly remind myself of the loving times - i just had a surprise breakfast from him last week. :)
lets just see how many more fishes to come .grin.
yesterday marked our 1 year 9 months together. never been this far and never had it so sure. there were the other guys in my life that used to make me feel like i was the happiest person alive, but out of them, there was only one that made me feel like i could live with him for the rest of my life. had an interesting talk with mum bout the gals tt used to hover ard dad last time, based on the fact tt well, dad was good looking and charismatic. alwin has a fair share of them too.. the gals. visualising on a fishmonger's tray, you'll have a fair share of irritating fishes, dark skin fishes, germaine-ic fishes, and all the rest of them hovering ard just to get a bite of MY BREAD. i close 1 eye sometimes, in fact 2 most of the time.. but i know i have to protect whats mine. according to mum's analogy, there were gals(at tt time) who even told my mum tt.. "so wat? ure the gf onli.. clear fight.." and then mum asked if i was willing to live with this for the rest of my life.
honestly, i pondered. living with it for almost 2 years was enuf to suffocate me and it made me irritable. was i really able to live with it for the next 60 years? i allowed my thoughts to freely roam and these days, i caught myself totally so deep into thoughts that when alwin suddenly taps me on the shoulder, i get lost in the surroundings of where the car was. today, i went to the kwan yin temple and got a good lot after asking abt the above mentioned problem.
"A fledgeling soon grows to be a mighty bird. it then flies to heights, other birds could not attain. one is lucky to get this prediction. every good thing comes naturally"
when i read this lot, i was elated. wow, it even mentioned accordingly to what i asked. it said other birds could not attain. then when i was home.. i suddenly thought.. was this lot toking bout me.. or toking bout him.. -stunned-
im not saying i live my life with all these lots. somehow, temple lots give you just greater certainty and prolly an ease of mind should u know things are going to b fine.
tt aside, coming thru almost 2 years of r/ship, those who have been thru it would know it takes a tremendous amt of maintenance. finding time to care and love each other, loving him still despite all the things he forgot to do, just being together without taking each other for granted, a whole lot of assurance. its as easy as typing it out but really its all hard work.
he irritates me with the most unbelievable habits but at the end of the day, you know u've accepted it when you know u'll lived with it. and everytime something bad or something sour happens, i constantly remind myself of the loving times - i just had a surprise breakfast from him last week. :)
lets just see how many more fishes to come .grin.
♥♥♥
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