i love butter cookies since young, although the thought of gorging butter more than cookies gimme the shudder.. i will still put it under my fav food list then goes on forever.
i remember back then when i first open my tin with excitement, i would gobble the ones tt had the sugar on top.. and would alwix hate to eat those with raisins.

i love butter cookies so much till my mum got fascinated with me when i told her that Kjeldsens is the original butter cookie manufacturer. the rest of the butter cookies just dun taste as good. speaking of which, i have a super big tin under my desk.. and i found myself liking the ones with raisins now.

bullshit aside, kenny was rite. ppl do change.

under circumstances, as the years go by, ur preferences for certain things change, ur tastebud changes, ur views and attitudes on certain issues, mentality, the love you once had for this person.. etc.

so..
why did i used to love butter cookies with sugaring on top and now hate it?
why did i used to think that money is not everything and now think otherwise?
why did i used to think that being in love is not as complicated as being in it now?
why did i used to be simply bo chap in my r/ships and now have emotional dependency on him?

why?

i had many why questions in my mind. had many rhetorical questions too. rus thinks he has grown up after knowing how to react to things differently. it set me thinking.. when was the last time i thought ive matured..

just like how i simply canot comprehend what the lady in the toilet had to do.

i needed to use the toilet in office and the rest of the cubicle was occupied. just because u accidently got water on ur blouse doesnt mean u have the right to leave ur bag in the cubicle and go ahead with the drying of ur blouse under the hand dryer AND! deprive ppl's usage of the blardy toilet! this lady was almost close to 40.

so.. 40 years on earth. 40 years of experience to do this?

certain doings of human, of friends, of him, of everyone ard me makes me ponder hard.. im still very much a thinking person which explains the extreme sensitivity. i think v much bout y he does this.. y she reacted tt way.. but am i too bothered bout their affairs? should i b once again the simply bo chap me? isnt it suppose to be 100% non of my business?

gradually, i understood y yong thinks that he has got v lil brain cells, and tt it should onli be occupied with meaningful things. he doesnt remember things like ppl's bday.. or what course im taking despite telling him that at least 5 times a year.

so what if i remember everyone's bday? so what if i remember my buddies address by hard? it will onli make me pick up my hp, text in "happy birthday".. sent it to the bday boy or gal.. and have him or her reply "thks" and later forget that I even sent tt msg.

what the hell is wrong with me. i dun even know what the future lies ahead. im graduating next year and i dun even know what i wanna do.. which path to take and whether it is going to be the right choice.

i think i know what i need now. a quiet overnite stay at a beach. all alone.

for now, lets keep things simple. work tmr, so slp.

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