Tuesday, August 16, 2005
i used to be very disturbed by how ppl would react.. or how ppl will think when they know of certain things.. or maybe just how they think of me, judging me from the actions or things i do.. now.. i no longer care.
the weekends were educational in a way.. i canot control how ppl think, what ppl say or what they feel like doing. unfortunately, i onli realise it only tt weekend.. hopefully aint tt late..
"aiya, very individual one la.."
its a common phrase my buds and me realli like to use.. realising the fact tt as we all grow up together.. we dun share many same sentiments.. and our thinking differs. gradually... from having a same common goal to finish our Os in secondary sch with the 9 of us.. we diverge into many smaller other groups..
some of us groups are more practical.. a couple are MCP and super MCP in fact.. others are more restrained to having a life to themselves. i dun blame them tho.. as i said.. when we all grow older.. mindsets all change.
whilst i enjoyed the company to MOMO and Dbl O last weekend, i canot stop ppl from not njoying the music at MOMO or at Dbl O.. neither can i stop ppl from flaring for no aparent reason just because me, rus and jia tot tt it was time to go at 2am and we were realli tired, ALSO.. i canot stop ppl from getting pissed just because one of us duna drink.
i guess in the past i was too sensitive to how others feel. on one hand, it might be a good thing to be sensitive and to be like in other's position.. on the other, being a tat too sensitive can refrain one from doing what he or she wans.
it was a valuable lesson. u never know when u realli understand something, untill u r able to apply it on urself.
things dun normally happen the way u wan them to. jia is rite.. after having chats with this dear buddy of mine yest.. she said i should maintain an open r/ship w him. im alwix saying.. "whatever will b.. will be.." but at the end of the day.. i couldnt apply it internally. i got numbed. the feeling wasnt very good. reciprocal.. reciprocal..reciprocal..
well anyway, clubbing was alrite.. but i announced it to be my final clubbing stint in maybe 6mths to a year.. i just dun njoy it as much as b4.. when u can dance till 4am in the morning, have supper and then reach home at 6am. last weekend, i concussed at 2am.
i went to watch dim sum dollies today at the esplanade and i farking laugh my lungs out! it was sooo furnie la. i realised.. i havent been that happy for a long long while. and it was as good as it lasted.
its the 17th already.
i hope by having this much strength.. this much preserverance.. something comes out of it. im trying.. and im trying v hard..
the weekends were educational in a way.. i canot control how ppl think, what ppl say or what they feel like doing. unfortunately, i onli realise it only tt weekend.. hopefully aint tt late..
"aiya, very individual one la.."
its a common phrase my buds and me realli like to use.. realising the fact tt as we all grow up together.. we dun share many same sentiments.. and our thinking differs. gradually... from having a same common goal to finish our Os in secondary sch with the 9 of us.. we diverge into many smaller other groups..
some of us groups are more practical.. a couple are MCP and super MCP in fact.. others are more restrained to having a life to themselves. i dun blame them tho.. as i said.. when we all grow older.. mindsets all change.
whilst i enjoyed the company to MOMO and Dbl O last weekend, i canot stop ppl from not njoying the music at MOMO or at Dbl O.. neither can i stop ppl from flaring for no aparent reason just because me, rus and jia tot tt it was time to go at 2am and we were realli tired, ALSO.. i canot stop ppl from getting pissed just because one of us duna drink.
i guess in the past i was too sensitive to how others feel. on one hand, it might be a good thing to be sensitive and to be like in other's position.. on the other, being a tat too sensitive can refrain one from doing what he or she wans.
it was a valuable lesson. u never know when u realli understand something, untill u r able to apply it on urself.
things dun normally happen the way u wan them to. jia is rite.. after having chats with this dear buddy of mine yest.. she said i should maintain an open r/ship w him. im alwix saying.. "whatever will b.. will be.." but at the end of the day.. i couldnt apply it internally. i got numbed. the feeling wasnt very good. reciprocal.. reciprocal..reciprocal..
well anyway, clubbing was alrite.. but i announced it to be my final clubbing stint in maybe 6mths to a year.. i just dun njoy it as much as b4.. when u can dance till 4am in the morning, have supper and then reach home at 6am. last weekend, i concussed at 2am.
i went to watch dim sum dollies today at the esplanade and i farking laugh my lungs out! it was sooo furnie la. i realised.. i havent been that happy for a long long while. and it was as good as it lasted.
its the 17th already.
i hope by having this much strength.. this much preserverance.. something comes out of it. im trying.. and im trying v hard..
♥♥♥
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