a long chat with my buddy brought back familiar feelings and emotions. but i know i got over things so it wasnt as bad as how he felt. i understood the way he mentioned the closeness, the everything and i could almost feel his pain. i wouldnt want to talk about his problem here, coz its just not right. im glad he called tho..
i prayed this morning.. and silently hoped that every new day of his.. will be a brand new one..

oh yes, sometimes love just aint enough. ever experience a break up and realise how well Murphy's Law work on u?
switch on the radio and have couples dedicating songs to each other or have songs that signify the both of you. worst if the songs speaks about how you feel at that point in time.
take the bus and remind yourself about the routes that were so familiar.
somehow, everywhere you go.. whatever you do.. seemed to have a connection to him/her. and i know that kinda feeling jolly well sucked.

there could be 2 ways to get out of all this shit. either you face it up bravely or you just mellow and cry urself away. i remembered a few weeks back when i met jo, we discussed about our topics and how we agreed upon the fact that when you're in a 3rd party relationship.. the weaker one always wins. *shrugs*

for me, i was in the latter for a couple of months until i decided i wasnt going to cry my life away. its irritating to repeat all that has happened again.. but after that few months.. i decided to face up to it.
i began to download all the songs that signify me and him AGAIN. i listened and cried.. listened and cried.. until i was NUMBED to the songs -- budd, if you're reading this.. u might wanna try..

i wrote this for you. and if any point of time you wanna call me again. you know the number.. and we will always be zui jia pai dang. *hugs*

ps:/ this is the 1st song for you.

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