Thursday, November 03, 2005
time: 0054hrs
listening to: christian wunderlich - so in love
indulging in good music, quiet self, non-conflicting thoughts, audit notes wasnt a familiar sight especially when its a PH the next day. but i was from the evening till now.. having my nalgene bottle right beside me, pumping myself with gallons of water lost from sun tanning and reading my notes at ease. i know ive come to terms with it. ironically, i dare not think any further.
the morning had been eventful. the people came over for sun tanning. had good talks, laughs as usual. proceeded to brekos for tea break and then to xian's place for slow mahjong. it was nostalgic going back to amk. it was the area i grew up. the area i know best.
yesterday night was bad. i felt mentally choked. there were so much things i wanna say to my friends but i couldnt because of his job nature and for the fact that he doesnt want anyone to know. im not exactly good at pouring emotions but at least there could be a medium for cries of frustrations. i contemplated at meeting the rest at YD, coz i know i wasnt in the best of moods. should there be a direct bus back from amk, i wouldnt have went down. i hate to trouble people to send me back home because somehow i knew he wouldnt have finished at 2200hrs sharp. 99% of the time, it was going to be 2 hours late.
being his partner for long enough a time to tell, i know the chances were slim that he would finish on time. that feeling sucked, because it was 3 straight days of holidays for me and 3 straight days of work for him.
i appreciated dinner tonight. i indulged in every second of ur presence. of you being exceptionally sweet knowing u dont have that time for me. of me wishing time had stalled.
i had a silent tear dropping from the corner of my eye when i lay on your shoulder at Nokia. 2 hours was sufficient for dinner at Crystal Jade's and a wafer treat at Gelare's. it was definitely enough to spend that time together, knowing you'll always be around to hold my hand and letting me be somewhere in your heart.
listening to: christian wunderlich - so in love
indulging in good music, quiet self, non-conflicting thoughts, audit notes wasnt a familiar sight especially when its a PH the next day. but i was from the evening till now.. having my nalgene bottle right beside me, pumping myself with gallons of water lost from sun tanning and reading my notes at ease. i know ive come to terms with it. ironically, i dare not think any further.
the morning had been eventful. the people came over for sun tanning. had good talks, laughs as usual. proceeded to brekos for tea break and then to xian's place for slow mahjong. it was nostalgic going back to amk. it was the area i grew up. the area i know best.
yesterday night was bad. i felt mentally choked. there were so much things i wanna say to my friends but i couldnt because of his job nature and for the fact that he doesnt want anyone to know. im not exactly good at pouring emotions but at least there could be a medium for cries of frustrations. i contemplated at meeting the rest at YD, coz i know i wasnt in the best of moods. should there be a direct bus back from amk, i wouldnt have went down. i hate to trouble people to send me back home because somehow i knew he wouldnt have finished at 2200hrs sharp. 99% of the time, it was going to be 2 hours late.
being his partner for long enough a time to tell, i know the chances were slim that he would finish on time. that feeling sucked, because it was 3 straight days of holidays for me and 3 straight days of work for him.
i appreciated dinner tonight. i indulged in every second of ur presence. of you being exceptionally sweet knowing u dont have that time for me. of me wishing time had stalled.
i had a silent tear dropping from the corner of my eye when i lay on your shoulder at Nokia. 2 hours was sufficient for dinner at Crystal Jade's and a wafer treat at Gelare's. it was definitely enough to spend that time together, knowing you'll always be around to hold my hand and letting me be somewhere in your heart.
♥♥♥
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