Monday was a super emo day. sent two of my best buddies off to canberra at 9 in the morning. the feeling sucked for 2 reasons.
1st, definitely because my buddies were leaving to some foreign countries and its not going to be as easy as dialing their lines to ask them out for coffee.. but i know, as they step over the departure gates, they will come back to be a better man.
2nd, i couldnt help but bring myself back to those days when i was like them. busy packing and registering for school and accomodation. i wondered many times, what would have happened if i insisted on my decision and not come back ever. what would my life be today? mum's illness meant an extra responsibility of not giving her more worries. it also meant that it was one decision that caused easily part of my life's biggest regrets. i told ken that i envied his friend. for being able to throw down everything.. all her responsibilities and what-nots and just leave. i wish i could do that too..
and i want to be working on that for my masters. save my own money. *nods

to those 2 guys in canberra.. hope everything is going on fine. *hugs*

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