im so stressed up.

will people think that i got my pay increment because im on extreme good terms with my boss? or would people think of my job capability. because of this, these days i feel the need to prove something, and i think it ain't very healthy. colleagues in the same department are talking bout my "closeness" with boss, is that a mistake? i know it isn't. i lost my confidence.

a week more to my UK trip, everybody else is more excited than i am. my convocation. but i feel stressed over it, because everything is single-handedly planned by me. the air tickets, the hotels, where to go. what if something goes wrong? alot of things can happen in a foreign country. i have alot of "what ifs" going through my mind and i do not want to bother jia already. i have not got time to plan out the itinary. no time. time management you say. fark u i say. period.

i don't think i'll have enough to spend there. going with parents is one thing. being self-sufficient is another.

at the end of the day.. i worked too damn hard to want to give up now. ben said, sometimes we do not have to work so hard, some things just fall into place.

i wonder.

note: celine! you're missed!

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