Wednesday, July 29, 2009
you know how much i hated her. and im sure you know how much your decision has spoilt the entire day, and possibly the weeks/months to come.
how could you come to me on a monday morning, before i stepped out to work, and dropped me the bombshell.
how could you tell me with a straight face, that she is permanently staying over at our place every single day, expecting me to have no reactions at all, when you know that given a chance to slit anybody's throat, i would give her double slits.
how could you have said yes to that, knowing that i have to wake up exceptionally early on a monday morning when she is around, and for your decision, i have to wake up early everyday. and now instead of spoiling my monday mornings, SHE spoils ALL MY MORNINGS. and if that is not bad enough, when i come back from a crappy day at work, i have to see the next crappy thing at home
and now i have to hear her call my mom in the super high pitch act cute voice "HELLO AUNTY!!" OH CAN YOU FUCKING SHUT UP ALREADY. i want to strangle her.
how could you have asked me to KAN KAI, when you know its impossible for me to do it. why is it that everything that happens, its always me at fault. im the impossible one, im the KAN BU KAI one, im the bad tempered one, im the unreasonable one, im the unforgiving one. you know what? SHE'S LIKE A DARLING ANGEL LA OK. are you happy now.
how is it remotely possible that we have to help each other because the freaking owner of the flat she rented is going to sell the house, and because she doesnt wanna go back to her own house to stay, i have to bear with her problem?! you have to tell me she has no place to go to, i wonder where her mom, dad and brother sleeps. on the roads maybe.
and why am i the last one to know. because you KNOW THAT THIS DAY WILL HAPPEN. and despite knowing that, you agreed. i cannot believe this.
maybe your decision was so you could see your son more often. im not a saint. im not buddha who can smile and be merry. i am borned with an emotion. a fiery one now. i cannot understand a decision like that and i cannot jump for joy. and you know it better than anyone after giving birth to me and living with me for the past 26 years.
i come home everyday trying to make the both of you happy parents. i work hard, study hard and do everything the best of my capabalities so that if you two are not proud, at least you two do not have to worry about me shop lifting and becoming a prostitute. i always know that he was your favourite, and i always tried to make that distinction less obvious. i bought you nice stuffs when i go shopping, i bring you to nice places to eat, i buy you curry puff from OCK coz i know you love it. at the end of the day, the decision is still made without me in consideration.
you know this will make me hate her even more.
enough.
i've had enough.
how could you come to me on a monday morning, before i stepped out to work, and dropped me the bombshell.
how could you tell me with a straight face, that she is permanently staying over at our place every single day, expecting me to have no reactions at all, when you know that given a chance to slit anybody's throat, i would give her double slits.
how could you have said yes to that, knowing that i have to wake up exceptionally early on a monday morning when she is around, and for your decision, i have to wake up early everyday. and now instead of spoiling my monday mornings, SHE spoils ALL MY MORNINGS. and if that is not bad enough, when i come back from a crappy day at work, i have to see the next crappy thing at home
and now i have to hear her call my mom in the super high pitch act cute voice "HELLO AUNTY!!" OH CAN YOU FUCKING SHUT UP ALREADY. i want to strangle her.
how could you have asked me to KAN KAI, when you know its impossible for me to do it. why is it that everything that happens, its always me at fault. im the impossible one, im the KAN BU KAI one, im the bad tempered one, im the unreasonable one, im the unforgiving one. you know what? SHE'S LIKE A DARLING ANGEL LA OK. are you happy now.
how is it remotely possible that we have to help each other because the freaking owner of the flat she rented is going to sell the house, and because she doesnt wanna go back to her own house to stay, i have to bear with her problem?! you have to tell me she has no place to go to, i wonder where her mom, dad and brother sleeps. on the roads maybe.
and why am i the last one to know. because you KNOW THAT THIS DAY WILL HAPPEN. and despite knowing that, you agreed. i cannot believe this.
maybe your decision was so you could see your son more often. im not a saint. im not buddha who can smile and be merry. i am borned with an emotion. a fiery one now. i cannot understand a decision like that and i cannot jump for joy. and you know it better than anyone after giving birth to me and living with me for the past 26 years.
i come home everyday trying to make the both of you happy parents. i work hard, study hard and do everything the best of my capabalities so that if you two are not proud, at least you two do not have to worry about me shop lifting and becoming a prostitute. i always know that he was your favourite, and i always tried to make that distinction less obvious. i bought you nice stuffs when i go shopping, i bring you to nice places to eat, i buy you curry puff from OCK coz i know you love it. at the end of the day, the decision is still made without me in consideration.
you know this will make me hate her even more.
enough.
i've had enough.
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