Monday, June 14, 2010
Neglect
i logged into my page today and realised - the blog has been neglected for almost 3 months. 0_0
there must have been one million happenings since 3 months ago and i shall in a desperate attempt, try to recall events so i can pen it down here, afterall, its a place for my memories. long post!
Friends
friendship is still not saved and things are still awkward as ever. the surprising part, i heard, is that maybe she doesnt even know we are, or at least i am disappointed with her. the fact that i cannot even look at her in the eye and hold a proper conversation shows alot. i told shan, that i really do not have alot of girlfriends, mainly because i cannot tolerate most of their behaviours. the main bulk of my girlfriends are very much like me, we detest most girly behaviours, them being needy, them being teh, them putting their boyfriends in the priority line,etc. and sadly she has morphed into one.
to add on to that, she has also now become a selfish person. i do not know how this friendship continues. or if i can ever be friends with her again. the recent event left me in shock. why couldnt you have opened your mouth and asked if this was our event or an event with spouses? why is it that just because you ASSUMED it was non spouses event, the other person gets the blame of not telling you?
we are not the only 2 feeling that you have changed. even your best friend feels that you have been different. the only possible situation that might come out of this is that everything else remains the same or if not, just gets worst. and im not trying anymore, coz im not even in the wrong and you still think you are right.
Bali
hubby and i went to bali in may for a short getaway trip and also needless to say, to dive. we did a 2 days diving and a 1 days R&R, which was just enough i felt to get away from the hustle and bustle of Singapore and if not more gossips and disappointments.
The highlight of the trip must have been at Manta Point where i finally finally saw the Manta rays. we did a backroll descend and the water was horrendously cold. 3mm and a rash guard was obviously insufficient. but when we descended and when the instructor hit his scuba tank with the metal rod vigorously, creating a "ting ting ting ting ting", my heart dropped and i forgot about the coldness. right in front of me, albeit bad visibility, was 4-5 huge ass manta rays. as they flapped their "wings" and swam past me, i was in awe.
i was finally diving with the manta rays.
Anniversary
on 31st may, me and hubby celebrated our one year of marriage. we had a simple dinner at outbacks in millenia walk and for some reasons, i was exhausted so left after dinner back home. it was a year i understood my hubby more as a person, and i appreciated having our talks because i think its always good to iron out the differences there and then. speak the truth and clear the doubts. it was then also our 2543 days together (im not crazy, i utilised a day counter on internet. haha)
Running
around mid april, my friends paid for my polar running watch - r300 as a birthday gift. on 29th april, i started running with it and somehow instantly fell in love. it comes with a footpod and a heart rate monitor, so it tells you how far you have ran and if you are working hard enough! for the first 3 weeks, i was slightly frustrating coz the footpod wasnt measuring the distance accurately so when i went for the passion run and the sundown marathon, the watch was measuring a shorter distance. it was an impact to my morale coz i thought i was finishing the 10km, only to find out on the distance marker that i was still at 8.5km.
i finally figured that it was because i didnt tie the footpod tight enough on the shoe, and ever since it has been measuring the distance accurately. :)
so i have been running everyday during lunch. 5km from OGS to the flyer and back, and also watching what i eat. i guess during the cfa last year, i was eating too much junk and when i keep seeing the weighing machine numbers creep up, i knew it was time to start running. running from OGS to the flyer during lunch hour was a challenge because sometimes the weather gets sweltering hot! everytime when i reach the flyer at 2.5km, i feel like giving up. but i never gave up. i always complete my run and that sense of satisfaction when u reach the 5km mark is soooooooo satisfying. :)
lost 2kgs in a month and im going to buy that osim weighing machine that measures your weight and fat content. 5 more 10km races to go and i want to try and hit that 1hr10min mark in the standard chartered run this year. i need to slice 10mins off my PB now at 1hr20min so that will be a personal goal for now! half marathon next year!
smoking and drinking
because of the above personal goal, i have to date stopped smoking for 14 days. like i tell people around me, im not trying to quit smoking, im just trying to see how long i can last without one. (i choose the cowardice way since i might just smoke again tomorrow. haha!). so far so good, there was the occasional urge, especially after a meal or after beer, but im keeping it under control. i actually feel more determined this time.
and because almost all the time the urge comes from drinking beer, ive decided to stop/cut down on beer so then i wont have all these urges anymore! in any case, both these changes are good for me since drinking beer has so much calories that i need to probably run alot more to burn it off.
Work
in 14 days time, i would have worked at NT for a year. i have to say that if you work in an industry that requires you to commit to month ends, time pass alot faster. its alot different at NT and at SS - at NT the bosses appreciate your work and if you stay late. they dont take for granted that its normal for you to work late on month ends although it probably is. they thank you for your time, i mean literally come to your desk and say thank you. it is with this kind of boss that you will not feel disgruntled like i was at SS. it makes the working environment alot less tense and alot more enjoyable.
Going Foward
ok i cant think of anymore major events so i guess thats about all.
im looking forward to:
more runs and more weight loss.
Dayang in August (im bringing my cousin and colleagues there for OW)
7th year anniversary with hubby (our dating anniversary, i know its bimbotic, but its 7 years ok!)
the stand chart mara to hit my personal goal.
till then!
there must have been one million happenings since 3 months ago and i shall in a desperate attempt, try to recall events so i can pen it down here, afterall, its a place for my memories. long post!
Friends
friendship is still not saved and things are still awkward as ever. the surprising part, i heard, is that maybe she doesnt even know we are, or at least i am disappointed with her. the fact that i cannot even look at her in the eye and hold a proper conversation shows alot. i told shan, that i really do not have alot of girlfriends, mainly because i cannot tolerate most of their behaviours. the main bulk of my girlfriends are very much like me, we detest most girly behaviours, them being needy, them being teh, them putting their boyfriends in the priority line,etc. and sadly she has morphed into one.
to add on to that, she has also now become a selfish person. i do not know how this friendship continues. or if i can ever be friends with her again. the recent event left me in shock. why couldnt you have opened your mouth and asked if this was our event or an event with spouses? why is it that just because you ASSUMED it was non spouses event, the other person gets the blame of not telling you?
we are not the only 2 feeling that you have changed. even your best friend feels that you have been different. the only possible situation that might come out of this is that everything else remains the same or if not, just gets worst. and im not trying anymore, coz im not even in the wrong and you still think you are right.
Bali
hubby and i went to bali in may for a short getaway trip and also needless to say, to dive. we did a 2 days diving and a 1 days R&R, which was just enough i felt to get away from the hustle and bustle of Singapore and if not more gossips and disappointments.
The highlight of the trip must have been at Manta Point where i finally finally saw the Manta rays. we did a backroll descend and the water was horrendously cold. 3mm and a rash guard was obviously insufficient. but when we descended and when the instructor hit his scuba tank with the metal rod vigorously, creating a "ting ting ting ting ting", my heart dropped and i forgot about the coldness. right in front of me, albeit bad visibility, was 4-5 huge ass manta rays. as they flapped their "wings" and swam past me, i was in awe.
i was finally diving with the manta rays.
Anniversary
on 31st may, me and hubby celebrated our one year of marriage. we had a simple dinner at outbacks in millenia walk and for some reasons, i was exhausted so left after dinner back home. it was a year i understood my hubby more as a person, and i appreciated having our talks because i think its always good to iron out the differences there and then. speak the truth and clear the doubts. it was then also our 2543 days together (im not crazy, i utilised a day counter on internet. haha)
Running
around mid april, my friends paid for my polar running watch - r300 as a birthday gift. on 29th april, i started running with it and somehow instantly fell in love. it comes with a footpod and a heart rate monitor, so it tells you how far you have ran and if you are working hard enough! for the first 3 weeks, i was slightly frustrating coz the footpod wasnt measuring the distance accurately so when i went for the passion run and the sundown marathon, the watch was measuring a shorter distance. it was an impact to my morale coz i thought i was finishing the 10km, only to find out on the distance marker that i was still at 8.5km.
i finally figured that it was because i didnt tie the footpod tight enough on the shoe, and ever since it has been measuring the distance accurately. :)
so i have been running everyday during lunch. 5km from OGS to the flyer and back, and also watching what i eat. i guess during the cfa last year, i was eating too much junk and when i keep seeing the weighing machine numbers creep up, i knew it was time to start running. running from OGS to the flyer during lunch hour was a challenge because sometimes the weather gets sweltering hot! everytime when i reach the flyer at 2.5km, i feel like giving up. but i never gave up. i always complete my run and that sense of satisfaction when u reach the 5km mark is soooooooo satisfying. :)
lost 2kgs in a month and im going to buy that osim weighing machine that measures your weight and fat content. 5 more 10km races to go and i want to try and hit that 1hr10min mark in the standard chartered run this year. i need to slice 10mins off my PB now at 1hr20min so that will be a personal goal for now! half marathon next year!
smoking and drinking
because of the above personal goal, i have to date stopped smoking for 14 days. like i tell people around me, im not trying to quit smoking, im just trying to see how long i can last without one. (i choose the cowardice way since i might just smoke again tomorrow. haha!). so far so good, there was the occasional urge, especially after a meal or after beer, but im keeping it under control. i actually feel more determined this time.
and because almost all the time the urge comes from drinking beer, ive decided to stop/cut down on beer so then i wont have all these urges anymore! in any case, both these changes are good for me since drinking beer has so much calories that i need to probably run alot more to burn it off.
Work
in 14 days time, i would have worked at NT for a year. i have to say that if you work in an industry that requires you to commit to month ends, time pass alot faster. its alot different at NT and at SS - at NT the bosses appreciate your work and if you stay late. they dont take for granted that its normal for you to work late on month ends although it probably is. they thank you for your time, i mean literally come to your desk and say thank you. it is with this kind of boss that you will not feel disgruntled like i was at SS. it makes the working environment alot less tense and alot more enjoyable.
Going Foward
ok i cant think of anymore major events so i guess thats about all.
im looking forward to:
more runs and more weight loss.
Dayang in August (im bringing my cousin and colleagues there for OW)
7th year anniversary with hubby (our dating anniversary, i know its bimbotic, but its 7 years ok!)
the stand chart mara to hit my personal goal.
till then!
♥♥♥
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